"on 20 October 1994, Headache
the Heart doesn't hurt anymore, but now a headache. It breaks and refuses to respond to pain medicine. In the chest area feeling, the through-hole, like a rocket flew through me. I hate not being loved, afraid to walk the paths in the woods that lead to the Institute. Afraid to face the rapist, can't get rid of thoughts...
Lesson 137. keeping a personal journal as an alternative to visiting the therapist, but not substitute for a care soul.
in fact, the headaches began after the end of the 9th grade. It then should have gone to study in pedagogical College, where I would be able to Express their creativity or sewing school to keep the need for privacy, and even better - for a choreographer.
All 9 class together with a classmate we were going to study for primary school teachers. She did, and I couldn't leave the school because of the stereotype preferences of upper secondary education. My high ratings do not help, but hurt. In study I sought not only knowledge but also the spiritual meaning of the items that was missing in the understanding of most teachers. So, in 10th grade I lost my purpose in life. I just wanted to wear a beautiful dress for graduation... and waited for this event for 2 years.
In the classroom, increased verbal information without visual reinforcement contributed to the development of anxiety, physical tension, which "came to light" after shouting, loud conversation, tears and increased activity. At this time I was beginning to think I have brain cancer, as the pain was accompanied by dizziness, nausea, slight loss of coordination and I needed at least some explanation of his condition. Negative thinking came up with the disease.
by examination of the brain, the doctors only said that I have minimal brain dysfunction and said, "Well," Razdorskaya Oksana "600 lessons of Love... from the diary of autistici. The birth of the Spiritual art of therapy".
Increased anxiety, obsessive thoughts, fears and concerns is a small list of the mental debris that may be in the person's head. To him there was no need to love yourself, to value your time, want to live fully, to respect personal values and be true to YOURSELF regardless of the situation. Many conditions? Not as much as it seems at first glance.
what I want to say is not the pursuit of the perfect life, and the desire to live YOUR LIFE. Agreeing that I DO have problems in relationships with people, the need for treatment of chronic diseases, the need to resolve conflicts with relatives, duty to husband and children which I have neither time nor effort, I stop running away from reality and begin to live, RECOGNIZING their mistakes.
Why and who needs it? Is it not possible to live easier? . Many men and women ignore all of those "complicated personal life", voluntarily putting on a mask of "I'm OK!" or "LEAVE me alone, I'm alone". Such barbaric attitude creates tension in the body or apathy, stiffness or excessive swagger, and in my head - a HEADACHE.
This pain is only an indicator of emotional pain that I cannot bear it. Negative thinking leads-circle delusions of his master and enslaves him as a trainer of lions. That's just enough for a man, as the lion to realize himself "king of beasts", he will be able to change a situation to the opposite and tame their illness, seek help from a doctor, therapist, priest.
I must say that without God's help not to do when it comes to the state of the soul. Even if a person receives spiritual and material support from spouse, relatives, colleagues, friends, children - it is divine help and her need to thank people, but the main thing - to feel GRATITUDE to GOD FOR ALL things in her heart.
In psychotherapeutic practice, there are techniques to understand yourself, to see yourself, to recognize misconceptions, to open new ways of solving problems, but only the client is responsible for HOW and in WHAT WAY he will apply the obtained information in their lives.
Transformation of thinking does not occur instantly. It is a daily work on identifying negative beliefs, fears, and fight for their freedom. Helps me mood:
"I'm a free MAN. The same as other people around. And to be a slave I can only before God. In other respects I have the right to CHOOSE relationships, profession, clothes, diet, relaxation and creativity in harmony with the needs of my soul and body."
diary Entries are a great way to restore energy balance after day, bring thoughts in order, liberation from the emotional load of communication with a large number of people. Just do not forget that keeping a personal journal is an alternative to a therapist, but do not substitute for a care soul.
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