once I had the bike, and I went on a fishing trip 20 miles away from home, and was unhappy with his speed, hoping at least on the bike. Then I worked in the summer and I bought a moped and fishing began to get faster, but I settled on the thought that if I had a bike, I would have went even faster.
well, then I and the bike have bought the car... then the second... but the feeling is that still just treading water!!! - because I continue to regret not being able to accelerate even more! More! Even faster! Even more powerful! Acceleration, acceleration and time acceleration!
And all because it seems that always something missing, do not have time "to grasp". It's like living with the feeling that I would be satisfied with life only when you catch that from me always slipping away. And while just is still too slow (too slow, too slow, too slow to react), so you need to pull their socks up even more to accelerate, and then finally will catch what, all these years running.
But sneaking treacherous thoughts.
And, suddenly, I just used to look into the distance, on top of the present. And when I come to this "Dahl", the horizon is immediately removed, and I again look to the desired (otodvinuvshis) the distance, not noticing what is going on now. And this habit is robbing me of the present.
also, maybe I'm just afraid to see the present. Because it will need to survive. Joy, pain, sorrow, love, death of loved ones. But I'm not used to feeling real. For a variety of reasons. For example, because childhood to feel your feelings was not accepted, imposed upon other people's feelings ("Not true, it doesn't hurt," or "come on, it's no big deal"). And then I decided to do a little something to feel more in the present and to dream about the feelings ahead.
maybe I'm just a kid not learned to do with my feelings, some were afraid, some were considered bad, some do not understand where to send, and then, too, was a good way to hide from feelings today and start to wait for feelings of any other good and proper.
why these thoughts are treacherous? Because questioning all my efforts, to accelerate, to accelerate, faster to start to think, desire in whatever was to catch up with those who are faster (higher, longer). I'm on this treadmill almost all my life put, and it seems that even a little bit and will catch up with that from me always slipping away. And these treacherous thoughts can make me slow down. But where is the guarantee that, yielding to them and by slowing down to find what you're looking for?
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This is a collective image, but coincidences with your life is not accidental.
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