Тетя Света или почему хорошие мальчики не бывают счастливыми

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the house where we live we have a neighbor -  aunt of Light. Light lives in this house since birth. Light and the house is very similar. The house was built after the war for families architects. On Leo Tolstoy, with high ceilings 4.70, stucco on the facades, large Windows. The walls stretched cables, in some Windows there is no single glass, plaster and stucco in some places collapsed. Instead of chandeliers on the ceilings from the walls stick out “light bulbs Ilyich”. That was a reflection of the status, now in ruins, is banal there is no money. 

But, as the ceiling height and location remained our home, and ambitions remain our neighbor. Light demanding of the caretaker and janitor. Demanding light to all the shops and cafes on the ground floor. Light demanding of the neighbors and their guests. Light demanding to shops, cafes, concierges neighboring houses. And, sometimes, their guests, too. Their light requirements are seldom reported directly. Rather, it draws attention with a loud sigh, rolling eyes, pursed lips and disgust with the phrase facing the space “who of you here allowed?...”

And Amy has a son. His name is Oleg. Once Amy had a husband, but he probably died. This is not accurate. Oleg nice boy, 36 years. Oleg wears a beard and extra weight. With the growth of 178 its weight is 115. Oleg suffers greatly because of its weight, because the pants wear out between the legs. Legs thick, when walking heavily RUB against each other, right there at the top. Because of this, the pants have to be changed frequently. Fortunately, for Oleg, it's not a problem. Oleg quite successful Technic. 

Thank you mom. Mom decided that Oleg, like all in the family, will be a mathematician when he was 3. First he was sent to a special kindergarten, then mathematics, and then, of course, Oleg was taken to the CRPD. 

Oleg constantly went bad, at least that's what mom said. His older brother is another matter. Umnichka. At 25, he became a candidate of Sciences and doctor 31. 

When Oleg comes home to meet his wife and daughter. Oleg seems that he loves them. He earns money for them. Asks the wife how the day went and honestly trying to force myself to play with my daughter. Sometimes it even works. Oleg could tell for sure likes it or not, if I knew what love is. But he knows that he loves his mother. 

Oleg intraeconomic beliefs that are good sons always love their mother. Always remember about her - calling every day to ask about her health, sometimes several times a day, guess what to give her for the holidays, and where to get her to relax, asking her advice, do not argue, do not worry. Good sons always do so that mom could be proud of them. Oleg knows that he is a good son and that he loves his mother. And Oleg wants to kill his mom, but he still does not know. 

Oleg could feel that he was fed up with calling every day that he was fed up with guessing, and (God forbid) you can not guess what to get her, exhausted to take a vacation, to check your every step with what she will think, look and think. Oleg jam to be a good son. Oleg could feel that it stops the guilt and the shame because he was a bad son. Oleg, could we have a lot to feel, if not for the desensitization care from your feelings. 

Oleg had done so all his life. He was so unbearably painful and feel bad that he's not good enough son that the only way for him to cope with this burden is to disable its sensitivity. 

to feel even smaller, Oleg eats a lot. The more Oleg eats, the bigger it becomes, the better it is fenced off from the outside world - trying to protect itself from anxiety. Oleg eats to drown out the constant alarm. She was with him always, and when he falls asleep and when he wakes up. Almost like a mother. But, hammering the stomach, Oleg feels like in a trance, how was the baby fed. Him become well and happy. Oleg could drink, or smell, but the good sons don't do that.

Oh, if all this aggression, which accumulate at Olei could circulate in the relationship. If he knew that mom would accept him, then learned to pick their aggression is appropriate that preserves the form, and not be afraid that he will kill the mother.

Oleg was able to adjust relations with the mother, could no longer match her expectations and to live their lives. Oleg felt the freedom. Oleg generally would feel. 

That's how we live. 

All the characters are fictional. All matches are random. In addition to the house. 



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